we were told to dress up as a teacher..

we decided to go as Mr Higham

uncanny, huh.

RANT

AHHHHHHH. so angry

i cannot win with these people. 

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two of my closest friends have had a huge falling out over a boy. im trapped in the middle of them. if im friends with one, the other gets angry, if i go back to them, the other one gets furious. i can't get anything right. this has been going on for months, there is no way around it. IT'S DRIVING ME CRAZY. 

DO THEY NOT REALISE HOW HARD THEY ARE MAKING THIS FOR ME

words can't even express how furious i am at this situation. my hands are shaking with anger as i type. my breathing has risen to uncontrollable paces.

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

i just cannot stand girls

literally. they are the bane of my life. girls are so pathetic and BITCHY. like what is their problem, i swear i have no inclination inside me to be like that?
it seems in todays society (or at least mine) that the most popular girl actually turns out to be the most horrible, and she's only surrounded by giggling admirers cos they're too cowardly not to. i hate that. so what, in order to be liked i need to be the biggest stuck up queen bitch on the planet?
how silly of me, i always thought being a horrid person led you to unpopularity, oh how naiive i am.
it's strange, because what baffles me is, how do the 'popular' (bitches) group find eachother? i mean, most of them aren't exactly gifted in the looks department, and they're most definately not what i would classify as 'cool'. and the worst part is, its so blindingly obvious that none of them can stand eachother. what is it that draws them together? is it the need to feel accepted? the thirst for power? i will never know, all i know is, i am and will never be the same as them, nor understand what goes on in their heads. the thing that annoys me the most about them is, they will ignore you and treat you like the dirt on their shoes for most of the time, so when you go off and hang out with someone else, they get all upset and wonder why you aren't talking to them. they then latch onto you trying to drag you back under their power, so you stupidly give in and surrender to their friendship, wondering if they've turned over a new leaf...

nope, come monday morning you are back to being a beetle they wish they'd stepped on. your moments in the spotlight are over.

my sister's keeper

trust me, i am not a crier. i have been accused of having no heart at the amount of times  i will not cry at films or books. but today i watched my sister's keeper. and i can honestly say that my cheeks were dripping from start to finish. the subtle words and music reduced me to tears at least once in every scene, however i wanted to keep watching for more. it is about a young girl, brilliantly played, who was born to donate body organs to her sister who is suffering from leukemia. this heartbreaking tale follows anna through her strive to help her sister battle the cancer, but in the end, the inevitable happens. i felt horrifically choked up constantly, especially towards the end, but there was ongoing passion and trauma throughout. the most powerful film i have ever witnessed, and i am hard to please in this area. trust me.